The phrase I’ve uttered so many times over the past month.
For those on the receiving end, it’s been nothing short of shock — eyes wide, mouths open, trying to figure out what the hell to say back to something like that.
“I know. I even surprised myself with this one,” is my usual follow up, generally prior to the other person having figured out something to say.
And then the words start flowing — things along the lines of, I never saw this coming, what the hell happened and, usually, some variety of I’m-so-happy-you’re-going-to-do-great-things-isms.
For the record, let me try to break this down:
I never saw this coming
Of course you didn’t. If you’re a journalist, or know me through my work, you most definitely didn’t. I love my work. I’m always happy in the newsroom.
For my non-journo family members and friends, marital issues are deeply personal. I’m not the type to wear them on my sleeve (and I won’t be using this space to rehash anything), nor am I the type to focus on the negative things in my life.
Expect much more of that not-focusing-on-the-negative stuff here.
What the hell happened?
Well this is a huge question without any simple answer. Trying to summarize it all as neatly as possible: We’re two people who want different things out of life right now. There’s nothing wrong with that and frankly, I think we’re smart to realize it now.
I’ve been with Brent since I was 16. Eleven years. We’ve both done a lot of growing, but we’ve grown in different directions.
OK, but why New York?
I started a new job this summer on a team based out of an office in Manhattan. The deal was that myself and the other team member would work remotely from the newsrooms we’d worked for previously. The team met in New York recently. My best friend from high school also lives there. While I was there, I asked if it’d be possible for me to transfer to that office. The answer was yes. I’ll expand more on this — and everything, really — in later posts.
Thanks. Though I do feel like I have a lot to live up to now. I’m looking forward to trying to do that, however, and I appreciate your vote of confidence in me. I’ll do my best.